How is everything? Are you doing ok? Yes, yes I know it has been a tough few months but do you feel like you are doing ok?
Sometimes I don't know what I am saying or doing and I get confused, lonely and lost. But I think I am ok? Am I ok?
Yes, you are ok.
Its normal to sometimes not be ok right?
Yes, nothing is wrong with being upset or angry without them you wouldn't be you.
I like that, so all my anger and sadness is ok then?
Of course, as is your confusion and loneliness. Its not a bad thing to feel lost, if anything it's a good thing becasue it means the path that you were on needed changing and you went ahead and realised that. Now that may lead to questions of what if and you questioning where to go but that entrance, that door or path or loop of vines for that matter will be just ahead of you. When you are ready you will know what path to take.
So, I don't need to worry if I say the wrong thing to someone or I am late or I am never going to connect with anyone properly?
All those things are fine to worry about but there really isn't anything to do about them so why not let them go. You can only deal with the issues happening right in front of you. Worrying about tiny little things is exhausting and makes everything go in endless circles of stress.
Oh. So I don't need to scare myself about every tiny instance that could end up with all of my family and friends dying and me dying and psychological terror invading my brain?
Nope, its fine to look at worst case scenarios but then you have got to let them go and live your life without feeling constant fear.
I think I need to learn to relax and sleep.
Try not to learn to relax but rather just feel calm and relaxed mentally and it will calm you down.
Oh. Ok. Ooooo no no I am going to die alone, my heart is constantly being stepped on and broken apart how will I ever feel whole again I am a mess, my everything hurts and I am dying.
You doing ok?
Oh. Me, yup I am ok. I am not now but I will be.
Im here if you need you know.
I know.
