Runaway

What would happen if I just quit my job, quit university, delete all my social media and disappeared.

Would people notice?
Would people care?
Would people worry?

Do people want me in their lives?
Do people only want me to be there wall that they can throw their shit lives at and know I will listen?
Do people care when I lie in bed at night crying tears of heavy pain?
Do people not want me to try?
Do people like me? Or the person I can put on?

Will anyone accept me for myself?
Will anyone take me in and say you have a home with those you love?
Will I find a home?
Will someone love me the way that I love them? Maybe thats not the right question, will someone love me their own crazy beautiful way?

Im scared I am starting to believe the voices
Maybe they are right
Maybe strong friendship and love are for storybooks.
That reality is terrible when really its not reality that is terrible but really the reality in my brain.

Would people care if I disappeared?
Would they worry?