A letter to my body

Dear Body,

This is a letter from your mind. I know that you've been having a really tough time recently and I wanted to write you a letter.

Its not eloquent and pretty but rather it is very real and I truly I am sorry.
I completely love you, some days my self esteem dips and i'll miss that meal or i'll run up the flight of stairs. Somedays its the opposite where my mind is so messy that I treat you badly, eat terrible food, tense all my muscles, sleep at early hours and cry till my eyes are puffy. Somedays when I don't want to leave my bed, you remind me by your soreness to put one foot in front of the other, even if only to relieve my aching shoulders. It may sometimes feel like we are in conflict but in fact we are really allies.

I know it feels like nothing will ever relax and allow you not to wake up in pain but I promise you I, we, are working on it.
I know that its painful to do minor everyday activities. How when you get anxious instead of breathing and relaxing, I curl up into myself my whole spine contacting, my chest spasming, my eyeballs straining. It feels like some giant child has decided that I am a doll and is pulling my arms one way, my chest the other way and dragging my around behind him along the ground, where I bang my head as he walks clumsily down the stairs.

But know. Know that this is a letter of acknowledgment. I hear you, I know you are hurting. I know you hurt everyday but know that I am here and I am trying to fix it. One step at a time.

I may get angry at you but I will try instead to comfort you because it does no one any good to be yelled at when they are hurting. Instead a hug or support is so much more rewarding.

Body. You are beautiful, all your odd bits and pieces. You frizzy hair, you jiggly places, your dark hair and oddly shaped spine.
You are beautiful and I love you and always will, even if some days seem desolate, I will pick myself back up and comfort you becasue without my body I am nothing.

Yours always,

Mind